Having hidden myself from the world due to insecurity for more than half a century, I made the decision that I just won't do it anymore.  ADHD is a debilitating challenge to exist with. I have suffered greatly in the course of my life, because of it. It encompasses symptoms far more than just the inability to focus. These are but a few of the symptoms I deal with: Lack of focus : Having trouble staying on task, getting easily distracted, and struggling to listen. Disorganization : Difficulty keeping things in order, often forgetting to follow through on tasks. Impulsivity : Making quick decisions without fully thinking them through. Time management problems : Struggling with punctuality and meeting deadlines. Forgetfulness : Frequently forgetting important details, appointments, or deadlines. Restlessness : Feeling constantly on edge or fidgety. Emotional concerns : Experiencing mood swings and having a low tolerance for frustration. Relati...

I was walking my dogs this morning and a van drove by and beeped and someone was waving. So, I waved back, unsure of who it was. I turned down a side street that I always turn down and the same van was heading towards me and slowing down. They had obviously watched me turn and came around from the other side. They were now facing me. Interestingly I felt zero wariness. They rolled down their van window and it was a younger man than me. He said, "I am not a kidnapper or weirdo. I just wanted to ask you if you were married". I felt this was a divine appointment and decided to help this fellow out.  I told him that the number one thing he should NOT do is look for a mate at this point in his life journey.  That certainly got his attention. I than told him that most people think that their main priorities should be finding a mate, having a house, a good job, savings in the bank and a nice car, eventually kids, etc.  By now he was stunned.  He was listening very intently....

Quite often, people are labeled as having a mental disorder when, in actuality, they are simply dealing with unresolved trauma. It's a very fine line, and the labels we are given can cause us to create the symptoms of the label.  My first diagnosis was actually a wrong diagnosis and, most certainly, did not address a large chunk of what I was dealing with.  The greatest Physician and Healer is the God that created us.  Busy-ness, in the form of any and every distraction, including running to therapists to get diagnosed, can keep us from accessing the solution to our dilemma.  Throughout my lifetime, I have seen countless therapists who have been unable to help me fully heal. They have been somewhat helpful, but not to the degree that was life-changing.  I found that once I completely committed my life to Yeshua HaMashiach (Jesus the Messiah), everything changed. And it needed to be a full and complete commitment to Him.  Everyday He peels back yet another l...

Having ADHD and co-occurring disorders, high sexuality was a major symptom/issue most of my adult life.  That, coupled with my mother and grandmother always asking me if I had a new man in my life (as if that was the all-important end goal) kept me on the prowl even after coming to salvation 28 years ago.   I have always been drawn to men who were abusive to me emotionally , because you don't think you deserve more than that if you are insecure and were abused early in life.   I met a man 7 years into my walk with Yeshua (Jesus) who swept me off my feet with darkness.  Attacks from the enemy of our souls come in beautiful packages and he was powerful and beautiful. He was not an intrinsically bad person, but he was not well mentally or emotionally. I had found out, down the road that he had been diagnosed with anti-social personality disorder and BPD, as well as CPTSD.  It's funny, the very first day I met this man, he asked me out on a date and my im...

For the neurodivergent mind, having a rigid schedule is typically helpful. The issue with this type of schedule is that once one settles into it, doing anything outside of it can be very disorienting. When it comes to committing your life to serving Yeshua (Jesus), one must prepare for such "upsets" of the proverbial apple cart. God is a spur-of-the-moment kind of God.  And you had better fasten your seatbelts and get ready for a wild and unbelievably rewarding ride. Initially it will feel disorienting, but soon you will realize just how healthy it is to get out of the rut of obsessive compulsive "order".   I had quite the "upset" today and it was truly one of the best days of my life.  I was sent on a mission of outreach to someone in unbelievable emotional pain and all they needed was Jesus!  There is nothing more rewarding than being the bearer of Good News to those in need.  Acts of service heal the mind better than any therapist. It's a truly glor...